I ‘resolved’ to read 100 books in 2017.

I’ve been keeping pace with reading 3 books a week, or phrased differently: reading a new book every 2 days. (I’ll explain how I do this in a future blog post. My strategy is realistic—I don’t sit down and read for hours).

For February I decided to only read books by people of color or that were about people of color.

I started the month reading The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks, for no reason other than it was next on my list, but when that book shook me to my core, I decided I needed to spend this month — Black History Month — learning and exposing myself to new viewpoints, attitudes, ideas, and cultures.

These books have shifted my perspective, and as cliche as it is, “opened my eyes.” I don’t want to compare this to veganism but the experience is similar in that I never realized how oblivious I was or how apathetic privilege can make you.

If you think you are colorblind, these books will test you.

They tested me, angered me, shocked me, humbled me, and yet made me believe we can and will do better as a society if we can keep having difficult discussions.

I see now that my reality and human experience is not the reality and human experience of so many other people. I wish it wasn’t that way, but I am thankful to finally be aware of this difference.

Be the change, yes, but can’t change what you don’t know.

The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks by Rebecca Skloot

Saying “fantastic” feels wrong given the subject matter but this story is one we need to share with everyone. It’ll change how you think about cancer, medical research, your biology, and American history.

Small Great Things by Jodi Picoult

This novel is terrific if you want to ease yourself into the difficult discussions of race and prefer fiction over non-fiction. I devoured this book and highly recommend the audible version. This was only my second experience with Picoult (I read Leaving Time in 2015 since it was a story about elephants) and I have such incredible respect for her for writing this book as well as her personal commentary at the end of the book.

On a personal note, this book also reminded me why I stopped practicing law. I was the type of lawyer (medical defense attorney) that would have represented Ruth. Her story reminded me that even when you “win” you can’t truly celebrate because a tragedy still happened. (So thanks for all your support! I love my new job a lot more!)

Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates

This was the perfect non-fiction follow-up to Small Great Things. It’s a rather short book but covers the difficult discussions we need to have. Consider it a must-read if you want to change your perspective and understand at the most fundamental level what it is like to be black in America.

Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

I loved this book. The story is fantastically captivating (though admittedly starts a bit slow) and ties in actual events from our recent history so perfectly that you have to keep reminding yourself it’s a novel and not a memoir.

The best part, however, is the subtle yet poignant observations of race in America and the descriptions of what it is like to be black in America, from both the viewpoint of black Americans and immigrants.

Currently Reading / Will Read:

The New Jim Crow: Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness

My Life, My Love, My Legacy by Coretta Scott King

The Good Negress by A. J. Verdelle

Just Mercy: A Story of Justice and Redemption by Bryan Stevenson

Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe

The Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead

The Color Purple

Rise of the Rocket Girls: The Women Who Propelled Us, from Missiles to the Moon to Mars by Nathalia Holt

Hidden Figures was my favorite film in 2016, which is also a book.

I also listening to Malcolm Gladwell’s podcast in January and recommend it.

Goodreads (you can follow me there) has a great list of BHM books too.

That’s it for now… I’ll do a longer recap post when I get to 25 books.

Here’s something I’ve been doing lately. When I go somewhere (mall, airport, baseball stadium, etc) I create a contact in my phone and list all the food options I find so I can reference next time. I also do this with restaurants, add contact and note …

This week I attended a business conference where I was the only woman.

As soon as I realized this, I felt an immense pressure to “represent” my gender; a sense of responsibility to be the symbol of female entrepreneur achievement.

and I think a lot of people feel this way about being vegan.

“Do you ever feel like you’re a bad example of veganism?”

is a question that bubbles up shyly in the member forums sometimes. Usually the poster notes s/he feels this way because s/he is overweight, or s/he doesn’t live on chia seed & kale salads, grow their own vegetables and go to yoga.

I totally get it. I felt that way when I was first vegan, too.

I was shy about telling people, not just because I was nervous about potential teasing or negative reactions, but because I wasn’t all that confident in being vegan.

I was making mistakes daily and I still had so much to learn.

I knew there would be questions I couldn’t answer (or answer well).

I also felt like I hadn’t “earned” the right to call myself a vegan. Partly because I didn’t feel I had been at it long enough…

I didn’t have a substantial historical record that I could hurl against the “this is just a phase” dismissal, and partly because there were always people online telling me I wasn’t vegan enough.

I didn’t want people to use my body to measure the validity of veganism either.

When I first went vegan, I didn’t look like the picture of perfect health.

I also knew I wouldn’t look that way for some time, and if I was no “after picture” yet, did I want to say I was vegan? Wouldn’t my imperfect representation be damaging?

The irony is I never felt this way identifying as a runner. To be clear, I was never a great runner. I wasn’t even a good runner. I was slow, but I never, not once, felt like being slow and needing to take walking breaks disqualified me from the title

Nor did I feel like I had to run X amount of races, have a certain physique, or run 5-minute miles to ‘earn’ the “runner” title.

Same with snowboarding. I have always felt confident saying I was a snowboarder, even when I was barely getting down the mountain in one piece.

Why did I feel confident saying I was a “runner” but not vegan??

Because runners and snowboarders aren’t UNDERREPRESENTED.

If you find yourself in the minority, you will feel a pressure to represent.

For most of us, being vegan is being in a minority, not just because vegans are a global minority, but because we (as individuals) are often the only vegan or vegetarian in our peer group and community.

We become, by default, the vegan representative to our friends, family and coworkers.

Of course that makes us feel uncomfortable.

Of course that responsibility creates a pressure…

…but it shouldn’t.

“[M]y wish for you is that you feel no need to constrict yourself to make other people comfortable.” – Ta-Nehisi Coates

Circling back to the conference, on the very first day, several of us decided to hit the slopes together before the first lecture.

On the chair lift I thought,

“I better “keep up” with them. I have to prove I am equal. That girl snowboarders are just as good as boy snowboarders.”

(I’m thankful I didn’t take this mentality to the bar with them…)

It’s terrible that I had these thoughts.

That I still have these thoughts…

OR that when someone once mistook me for a boy on the mountain (because I was “so good”) that I actually took that as a huge compliment…

I’m not going to debate whether feeling a sense of responsibility to “represent” is normal or healthy. Or that my reactions and thoughts are good. (I hesitate even sharing these private thoughts because I’m sure some of it has to do with my own ego…)

Instead, I’m going to share what you can do if you start feeling that pressure:

#1 Be transparent and admit you don’t have all the answers.

Admit you may not be the best example or the most informed. “I’m a slow runner” (without apology). “I’m new to this but…”

You can help pave a path without expecting the path you lay to be a highway.

Leading by example doesn’t mean you have to be perfect.

The less perfect you are, the more relatable you are. It’s great to inspire people and the best way you can do that is by being REAL. People can smell the bull.

PROGRESS NOT PERFECTION (always).

#2 Know that the success of the group you’re representing does not fall completely on your shoulders (even when it feels that way).

#3 There is no PROVING Proof.

You have no way to know if you actually “proved yourself.”

For example, I have no real way of knowing if those guys cared (or noticed) that I kept up with them on the slopes. I can’t gather objective facts that definitively tell me I impressed them, or if they saw me as an equal based on my presentation and/or my snowboarding maneuvers.

More importantly, I did’t go to this conference to prove anything !!

Nor did I go vegan to prove anything.

Being the lone female isn’t new to me. I attended this business conference last year as well and was the only female speaking and in attendance then too.

Even at plant-based conferences, I find I am one of the few female speakers. The speakers tend to be mostly white males, but I’ve noticed (and appreciated) how the folks behind the Remedy events aim for a very diversified lineup.

As for the guys in the photo: They treated me as an equal peer. It wasn’t a “boys club” either year and I never felt like I was treated differently. What I love about my online business entrepreneur community.

CLOSING THOUGHTS:

Don’t try to live up to someone else’s definition of vegan or their standards of perfection.

Those are their standards, not yours (more on this topic).

Using someone else as a measuring stick isn’t helpful or accurate.

That would be like me using Shaun White as the snowboarding standard. If I measured myself against White, I would never be “a snowboarder.”

Yet I AM a snowboarder and that’s the point: Not all snowboarders are going to be as awesome as White, look like White, or ride like White.

In fact, one of the reasons White IS so famous is because he did things on a snowboard that hadn’t been done before. He shook things up, so if we stayed captive to one viewpoint or definition that could never evolve, White couldn’t call himself a snowboarder either (perhaps I’m getting too philosophical now).

There is no divine image, no Shaun White standard.

Vegan is for everyone. And vegan looks different on everyone.

———-

On my flight to Denver, I read “Between the World and Me“, which is a terrific book—a bold exploration of America’s racial history. (It was the perfect non-fiction follow-up to Small Great Things, which I finished the day before).

Here are two quotes I’d bookmarked on the plane that started ringing in my ears as I was writing this post and grappling with my need to “represent” at the conference.

“You are growing into consciousness, and my wish for you is that you feel no need to constrict yourself to make other people comfortable.”

“You exist. You matter. You have value. You have every right to wear your hoodie, to play your music as loud as you want. You have every right to be you. And no one should deter you from being you. You have to be you. And you can never be afraid to be you.”

“All my life I’d heard people tell their black boys and black girls to “be twice as good,” which is to say “accept half as much.” These words would be spoken with a veneer of religious nobility, as though they evidenced some unspoken quality, some undetected courage, when in fact… This is how they steal our right to smile.”

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